"It Is So"

I feel like it is really easy to doubt God. When something doesn’t go the way we planned, or we get hurt, or we don’t feel like He showed up how we think He was supposed to, we start to doubt if He was even there at all. 

I’ve always known that I wanted to be on some sort of stage. I didn’t really care about who was in the audience because I figured, if you don’t know them then why does it matter. The thing is, one single audience member can change your life forever, but until you figure out who that is, you don’t realize how much you need them.

I remember the first night I wrote a song,  I wrote it for my best friend who moved away. I thought, “oh this is kind of cool.” So generally the next thing I did after that was to try and smash out another hit song. Well, let me just say, I hope the world never comes to something so bad that it goes on the radio lol. I remember the moment that I knew for sure that I wanted to make this my career, I was at my first concert and as my favorite song was being played there was such a calmness that went through me, and I was like this is what I want to do. 

I started asking God for guidance every night and that He would bring the right people into view to help me because I knew that I couldn’t do it by myself. I prayed for him to bring on new opportunities and to give me songs to sing. Writing and recording songs with my church was, and is, one of the most amazing experiences I have been able to have. I thought that this was the final answer to all of my prayers. I didn’t know how much more He would answer in the upcoming months!

I was a bit naïve then, I knew what I wanted, but I was afraid to chase it. I went through something that really changed me and caused me to doubt. I started to believe the lie that I couldn’t do it. That the pressure would be too much and that I wasn’t good enough. I felt a bit stuck because I had prayed for a life changing moment for years now, I finally had one, and I didn’t know what to do.           

I think that when we feel alone in our journey with God, it’s because we are doing a lot of the pursuing, or the other way around. You can’t force God to make your dreams come true, you have to have collaboration. I began to dive deeper into my Bible study and in my prayers to God. I knew that if I wanted Him to show me how amazing He was, I had to learn more about Him as well. A couple of months ago I wrote my absolute favorite song, and I one hundred percent believe that the lyrics were from God because when I sing it, I feel His presence and I feel Him there singing with me. 

I remember singing that song one night, and I don’t even know why but I just started crying. It was like I had no control over my emotions; everything was just coming out of me. When I wrote this song, I didn’t know that it was going to be something that I needed and something that I would hold onto. I had never experienced a moment like this before, where I felt like God was in control of me one hundred percent, where nothing that I was thinking was coming from me, but from Him.

Sitting there, a song came into my head. It is called “It Is So” and I heard the line that says, “You have spoken, and I know that it is so.” This was God’s way of telling me that no lie or hardship that I face in this journey will be able to get to me. I can do this because HE says I can. And that’s all the reassurance that I need. One single audience member was all that I needed, all that I needed to find my refuge in. And that audience member is Jesus.

When you feel like God isn’t near and He isn’t working, remind yourself where He is. When you hear the voice of God, the enemy will try and convince you that it wasn’t Him. But our hearts are the dwelling-place of God, so whatever way or form that we hear from him, if it leads you to more of him, then keep it. He is our life- line, so we will always be hearing new and good things from Him, hold onto them. Take the things from God and put action into it! Increase your faith by taking the word of God. When God gives us a word, he wants us to get something out of it so don’t be afraid of it. His word is ours to learn from!

God doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called. When we face a situation where we don’t feel equipped, we probably aren’t, so ask God to equip you for it because that was what you were meant to do.  Matthew 28:20 says, “Teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” As you go through seasons of doubt, never forget that God is always with you and He is working for your good. If you start to believe in the lies of Satan, call on the name of Jesus. You are loved by God. Why? Because, He has spoken, and I know that it is so.